2014 is behind us. I haven't place my thoughts down in public in just over a year. The last year was full of ups and downs and striving to move forward. Am I where I want to be yet? No. By no means. I'm not sure I am the complacent type. Work finally found its way into my life. To an extent I beat my home town like an extremely difficult video game. I spent 8 months of 2014 job hunting and feeling sorry for myself after grad school blew up in my face. I landed a job with the USDA. The pay is nice. Though, it is not where I want to be. Nope. The lack of movement vexes my soul. I really want to be traveling more. The world is a book and i'm stuck on page 3 at the moment.
Don't get me wrong. I am by far not complaining. I have a roof over my head and food on the table. My home town has been a wedge more accepting to a guy that doesn't jive to the beat of the native drum. I have a good group of friends and a wonderful band. The only down shot is that i don't feel fulfilled on a work level. Sure, I need to make a living just like every other "average Joe", but damn do I need to move. Working the 8 to 5 office gig puts money in the bank but leaves a hole. I find myself buying things that are amusing. I like them. They are utterly unfulfilling. They don't give me fond memories with friends. They don't give me great experiences that can only happen in some other place. Material goods just take up time. They are a brain distraction from the real world. I'm not against owning things, but I feel they can be a mental crutch. This is what I've found in my own life. If i start buying tons of useless things such as video games and more fiction books than a guy can read in 2 years then something needs to change. I have a good foot hold right now and in some ways I am quite glad the job i'm working is temporary. I don't' want to move, but I do want to find something else to fulfill my monetary needs. Food for thought, that is. With Spring coming in about 10 weeks I need to get the lead out and find something else.
That being said, my current band is just amazing. Nate and I dropped the rock and roll schtick and moved along to a folky medieval type sound. We picked up a cellist and it is a quite enjoyable sound. We want to get the band on the Ren-Faire circuit and maybe the convention circuit. I suppose we need to finish this EP so that can happen. Playing music is only one angle of what we want to do. Keeping the diversity of the income is going to be key. Starting my own business will probably be my most enjoyable way of making money. I don't deal well with having a boss. I hate being told what to do and find most of the things done in most offices to be completely useless. In the case of my job, I am at least helping people in a positive way. The job is at least in a side field of my general environmental and travel type skill set. Like i said, this is a firm stepping stone, but not the end game.
At least the house i'm living in is coming around. I'm able to sort my junk and get rid of most of the crap I don't need or want anymore. Organization is a good thing. And the motorhome project is still coming. Hopefully this spring I will be able to start that mess.
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